I like watching that video (below) For me it’s magic playing santa. In my car I have this unusual compartment which is snug against my left leg. Its rather small I suppose it really is for gloves which I never wear. well, I stuffed it with $5 bills, about 3 to 5 and when I see one of those street people with their cardboard signs out comes a fiver. Well I guess it feels good to do this. some may argue that five is too much. but like magic my day becomes brighter. traffic seems to not be so aggravating. I drive slower the music is nicer. Small price to pay for this kind of magic.   Blessed?

Is your life a wreck?

   Have you ever been in an auto wreck, I don’t mean the kind where you actually have to crash but the actual event where you are spinning and your mind is reaching and your heart is pounding and you have all these useless trivial thoughts like “damn I really wanted to go to the Holiday Concert this year”. I mean useless — you are about to die and things like that just occur to you?

   It was that way with me. Only I was just getting out of bed.

   I was fine only seconds before I look over and see the time, at first I just sort of wrinkled my forehead, it had to be a mistake, then I realized that I had slept the day away and it was indeed 4:59. heck it was nearly getting dark.

   I guess what hits you the most when you do such terrible irresponsible shit like this is it that there is no forgiveness for a man who sleeps all day like I did.

I got tons of stuff done in the first 25 minutes. It was like I was saying to everyone I will make up for this error. I changed the toilet paper I cleaned the bathroom sink I washed my face and I always forget to wash my face.

   It took 25 minutes when I was looking at my Blood Sugars monitoring chart. apparently my last entry was for 9am this morning. So actually I must have went to bed after that entry, which means I slept from 9am to 5pm. 8 hours.

   And who gives a flying fuck what my hours are? I slept well last “night” I was happy actually before the shock of the alarm clock got me to panic. I am retired let me have an upside down schedule.

   I just don’t know. I want to get out and socialize more but then I have no disciplines. Not when it comes to sleeping. I go to bed when I get tired and apparently wake up 8 hours later. Why get down on yourself for things that really are not all that critical?

Getting an online education

I been learning for the last week.


First off getting more education has been an exciting goal I been trying to get into. It appears that there are consequences for attempting to get formal education, say at a community college I could lose government benefits, I am not kidding. But there are online sources of education. I told My Big Sissy that I wanted to get more formal education about writing and she grabbed all sorts of links to real universities which grant free access to their recorded lecture series a few on writing. How cool is that?

What happened is just to test the water I signed up for a physics class. I love that kind of science I figured I would do well. However, it was a college course… and I just am brain jelly in math, its been so long since I done any math. Physics deals with Trig a lot, and I don’t know crud about angles and triangles. So I enrolled in a more basic class at khan academy. And I am having a blast.

True I have only completed 100% of third grade. But my schooling stretches over all the grades. Soon I expect I can take that physics class with confidence.

In addition to physics and math I also am enrolled in a very comprehensive NLP course like 30 hours of class. I always really wanted to discover more about NLP I think it will be a good class for me.


I guess all this fuss getting my domains and paying for hosting its all frame-working. this is my term for setting myself up to write things. Lets hope that what you read you find interesting and I hope that my grammar is not too annoying as well.